Equanimous

The oceans swell

The winds blow 

Fierce, soft, stormy 

All at the same time 

And I swoosh and sway

Unable to stay

Equanimous 

Sometimes to the right 

Sometimes I’m more leftist 

Always, on one side or the other 

Two sides of the same coin 

Alluding of the duality

That makes this reality 

That makes me react 

To this and to that 

And I struggle to be

Equanimous 

I get sucked in 

I get pulled in 

I loose track of the awareness 

That I am not this stir within 

Or without 

The fire  burns in my heart 

Both hot and cold

Disrupting and erupting 

Unable to hold still and remain 

Equanimous 

This strife 

This struggle 

This holding on and letting go 

Cycle after cycle 

Keeping me away from Me

Muddled in obscurity 

Till the lens of the veil lifts 

And there’s nothing after all 

No action, no reaction 

Just a flow of endless being 

And I become who I always am

Equanimous 

War

 

The Great War of our times
Is the one that wages within
With me fighting myself
Neither winning
The voices of good and evil
Thundering in my head
As the devil and the saint
Befuddle my intellect
I want to run away
To a land of peace and joy
I can’t seem to get away -
From me - how can I?

The war rages on and on
Till I stop, and sit in silence
Hearing desire lure the heart
While righteousness sternly grips the mind
The man within bends from his burdens
As the little child wants to jump with joy
Passion wants to fire the belly
While caution pulls back and demands patience
The sea calls out, the mountain tops sing
The city lures with her shiny things
Love beckons with a promise of happiness forever
While the arrows of betrayal still poke and sting

I hold my breath till I sense nothing
Only peace, a quiet stillness
In that moment of illumination
Light falls upon each shadow
Revealing there’s nothing more to fight
As the mind slowly ceases to try to win
I let go, and let it flow
Into His ocean, as I swim
I end the war, the war within