Into the (Spot)Light

Sharing my talents make me shy
For before I show off
I wonder why
Someone would look beyond what the eyes can see
Deep inside - inside of me.

With layers of emotions stored under my skin
Each of those pains, so hard to pin
When I prayed for help, god sent you all
In every shape and size, to hold me when I fall
To help pick up the pieces, help me move forward.

Not a day goes by when I don't thank Him
Let the show begin, let the lights dim!

Addicted To No Love

Pain pain everywhere
Not a thought to think
Then comes along anger
Keeping my temper on the brink
Frustration makes me disconnect
From all the other feelings
Trapped with the only two I know
A couple of simple dealings
Lash out when you refuse to feel
What really lies under
And stay numbed when things go all wrong
It's easier just not to wonder

Cover it all up with cake and cream
Feel the sugar high
Push it all down with a bag of chips
While watching tv shows go by
As the night passes into the day
Lie there numbed and stoned
Who knew salt and sugar would do the trick
It isn't sex, drugs or alcohol
Can't really be called an addiction
It's only food, after all

Till you move off the bed and couch
Till you decide to no longer slouch
The pain won't leave, the anger will stay
But a greater power will keep them at bay
It's the power to feel what you really feel
It's the power to stay calm while you still reel
It's the power to own what can't be bought
It's the power to love you,  no matter what